UGH! LIFE IS A PAIN

I am so excited!!! Tomorrow is me and my bf's 6 month anniversary. Big right? Totally. I was laying down yesterday, after I wrote on zee blog and I realized that something I need to start doing is talking. Well, not talking like just ranting and rambling because I do enough of that daily but talking to "him" about whats been going on. People have been saying I've been acting differently. I have been acting differently. My whole little show of being happy 24/7 has been starting to deteriorate. Im not as good as actress as I thought I was but thats fine because I stopped caring. Alot has been going on, just stress of 8th grade and teenage life and its been taking such a big toll on me because...I dont talk about it. Now of course I could write about it on here but how much would that help? Not only would I be typing for hours on end, I would be boring the heck outta you guys when I could be talking about something of interest and then doing my whole therapy session with the guy who cares, or at least does a REALLY good job of acting like he cares. I appreciate acting more these days. AH! Im starting to bore myself now. Right, so I didnt do much besides think today. Sunday is my crying day. Where I think about everything and everyone thats done me wrong, cry about it then plan my payback. Sounds pretty pathetic, I know but its a real joy for me. So thats what Im doing right now. Im having heck of a time too. Yup, not much else to say...so I'll write about my revenge plans and how my 6 month anniversary went tomorrow.

Sabrina
Signing off and out (Ha, its still cute to say)

SABRINA SAY WHAT???

O-M-GFAKD! Guess what??? I have a new goal....exciting isnt it? What Im planning, hoping, aspiring and working to do is do an online journal. Meaning, Im going to try and write on blog everyday with just a little update on whats going on with...ME! Yup, thats right. You'll get to be on my case about everything that goes on with me day in and day out. So, yeah. Right now Im feeling pretty sick. I went to Saturday school at Bard earlier today and then went to the Pokemon Platinum release party. It. Was. AWESOME! Got a signed copy of the game and everything. I was supposed to go to my friend, Rey, birthday party but I wasnt feeling party-ish at all so I just went home. Up until now I've been watching YouTube videos. Not that exciting but thats all I felt like doing. Im REALLY REALLY tired. I havent slept in the last 4 days. I dont know why. I dont know how either but...yeah. Maybe Im an insominac. I should go get checked out or something dont you think? Yeah? I dont think so either. I'll be fine. Anyway, Im gonna go give my friends snake a bath so I'll talk to you guys later.

Sabrina,
Signing Off and Out (Ha, thats cute)
Laterz<3

Space-Invaders! AH!

Well I founds me another movie like the text monster video I was telling you guys about in my last post and this one was about this boy who has this girl he's been going out for awhile and he was on her "Myspace" page the other day and saw a pretty flirty comment from this other guy and got suspicious. I said he should have broke into her account while she was away and looked at her messages. Yeah, yeah. He should have just talked to her but I dont know, I get nosy when I get jealous but anyway, he did it and got caught and that was just sad. He could have found a better way to break in than doing it at while he was at her house. Of course youre gonna get caught. I hate when people do things like that but are stupid when theyre doing it. If youre gonna be sneaky you have to be clever. You cant be an idiot and you have to know how to stay alert and listen for footsteps and stuff. If you cant do those things...then well, you should just be upfront and ask whats going on...even though I dont really approve of that because then the person you asked kinda realizes that youre watching so then theyre more aware and are more careful with their "cheating". Like even if theyre not cheating, theyre probaby not being fully honest with you because they dont think that you care because you havent really shown any sign that youre watching them or have any idea that you know what theyre doing when youre not around. The internet is a funny thing because its almost like this parellel world where youre yourself but you can make yourself into whoever you want to be and do pretty much whatever you want. Its alot easier to get caught doing something wrong on the internet because of all that data collecting technology there is now. Even simple technology like history and the cache, even if you delete them theyre still there and if you get caught by the feds doing something illegal ten years from and they want to pull up your old files they an do that and...well, thats why you have to watch what you do on the internet especially if you have an overproective overcurious space-invading boyfriend~

Text Monster

I have this friend who has this boyfriend and he likes to hang out with his friends and whatever and she used to feel left out. Now they both have cell phones and she texts him constantly so she never feels abandoned by her boyfriend. Lately he's been answering her text less and less and when she finally confronted him about it he told her that his phone was broken. She doesnt know what to do because, well shes hurt and kind of doesnt believe him. So she texted me and asked me what she should do. If she should just break up with him, call him out on his lying and smash his phone or confront him and ask him whats going on. I told her to smash his phone because I personally hate being toyed with. If he isnt going to use it to make their relationship stronger there is no point in having it and he doesnt need it sooooo smash it. She texted me back and said that she didnt know if that was really the best way to go. I figured she was just too scared to do it so I called her boyfriend and he picked up (phone broken right?) and told him to meet me at the park. As soon as I saw him I started an arguement with him and took his phone right off his waist and threw it into the monkey bars. It smashed instantly and he stood there in complete shock. Then he got MAD sooo I ran. I ran and ran and went home. To make the story short, his phone really was broken, he had just gotten the one he answered me on an hour earlier, my friend had gotten a text from him telling her what really happened about the slow responses (his brother was really sick) and they are both no longer my friend. But hey, who needed them right?^_^

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That story is no where near anything that really happened to me. Click the link below to see where I got the idea from, its a really cute video.

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Nothings Wrong With Revenge

You know what one of the saddest things is? When people dont realize what other people are capable of? They just keep pushing them and pushing them...and you know what? One day that kid is gonna lose it. Theyre just gonna be so tired and so finished that theyre gonna lose it and the good thing is with people like me who only go after the ones that deserve it...the ones that deserve it never see it coming because why? They underestimated the amount of bull that kid was gonna take so they think, "Oh, one more time isnt gonna hurt. This kid isnt gonna do anything." And by the time they finish that thought, theres already a bullet hole in the back of their head. Now, Im not promoting or encouraging violence but I'm a BIG believer in revenge. Being part of a Jamaican family, I was brought up in a mostly christian environment because...well, besides Rastarianism, christianity is really the main religion and Ive always been told, "God will take care of things." or "Every dog has their day and every puss has its 4 o'clock" and all thats good and well but honestly I dont think theres anything better than a little mortal revenge. Karma is great. God is great but mortal revenge is just so...sweet. Yeah, there's consequences but...its just too sweet. Consquences are what make life great anyway. Being in the wiccan religion also, they have a saying "What thou do to onto thee, will come back to thou art, three times three" which I guess I should follow. But like I said, nothing is as sweet as mortal revenge. I like my revenge to be surprising and sutle. Im not the one to come to school with an Ak tuked away into the front of my pants. No real satisfaction would come out of that but you know your favorite American Eagle sweater? The really expensive one? Yeah, the one with the bird on the front. That paint stain didnt get there by itself. And the homework that was being counted as a test for 40% of your grade that you thought you lost...you didnt lose it. You dont need to keep looking for it either, its gone.

If I Were A Boy (Pt. 2)

(Wow, took me forever to write this second part huh? Such a shame. My deepest apologizes, but dont act like you were actually waiting for it. Probably sittin there watchin music videos or something...But for those of you that were..Again, Im sorry.)
Here we go, second verse. Right after the chorus-
2. If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

This verse is trying to explain that guys like to create a reason to ignore their girlfriends eithier cuz theyre cheatin on them, feeling guility or just doing it cuz...well, theyre guys and thats what they do.(Not all guys but many) If youre phone is broken, no one can call you to check up on you and see how youre doing so that would probably lead to the thought that youre not in a relationship cuz the other person would want to call you and see how youre doing. Not necessarily if youre cheating or anything but just to ask what youre up to. So no phone, no girl meaning no reason for you not to be able to flirt and mess around with other girls you meet and no reason for your guy buddies to think that you have to be at a certain time because, youre sleeping alone so no one is worrying. What SOME guys also do is take advantage of the fact that their girlfriends are so loyal to them. They never have to think if their girlfriend would approve of what theyre doing because what she thinks doesnt matter. Its their life so theyre gonna put themselves first and if their girl doesnt like it, whatever. They know that no matter how disrespectful and inconsiderate they are, that woman, that girl, that lady is always gonna be at home waiting for them, waiting to cater to them and show them the love that many of them honestly dont deserve.

If I Were A Boy (Pt. 1)

Hey people, sorry for such a late new post. I've been busy meditating and taking part in a little soul search that was way past due(*shrugs* I dont know what Im talking about but it distracted you from the fact that I havent written a blog post in almost a month, right? Yeeeaaah). Anyway, this post is on a pretty well known female artist, Beyonce. I am not the biggest fan of her but I'm definitely not a hater. Shes really talented and has made it very far in the music world, I just think shes a bit overrated because many people, boys especially look more at her looks than her vocals, personality and all that other good stuff. I have a couple of guy friends that have a her picture as their wallpaper and claim shes their favorite artist having only heard one song by her, probably by accident. Now maybe Im overexaggerating but then again, maybe Im not. ANYWAY, my main point is though shes not my favorite, there are a couple of songs I do love by her. Mostly from her newest album, I AM...Sasha Fierce. One song in particular always always catched my attention and makes me think and its "If I Were A Boy" I know I probably could just write a simple overview of what I think the song means but todays an analyzing day so Im gonna explain each "part" of the song. Bear with me.

1. If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me


Guys, most of them dont really care about what they wear because theyre never trying to really impress anybody and some really arent going anywhere besides "going to go drink bear with the guys" Now we girls get dogged at so much for taking forever to get ready but the fact of the matter is if we didnt spend all that time getting ready alot of you boys wouldnt give a girl the time of day since its all about looks. We try so hard to look nice for you and all you can do is complain about why we're taking so long. No matter if we're going somewhere that'll be 30 miles away from you, we'll wake up and take 4 hours to get ready just so that the 5 minutes that you see us before we leave the house you think "Wow, Im lucky to have a girl like her."/You guys can whistle and do a once over of any girl that passes by you and expect us not to say anything but let us mention a dudes name and you just wanna go off. Its ridiculous. We watch you flirt but many of us dont say anything because if we do, we're called jealous. Its not about jealousy, its about respecting the female youre involved with./If we have a certain girlfriend that you dont like, you go right in with calling her names and saying this and that about her but if we should say something about one of your little nasty guy friends both of you wanna strangle us. Again, ridiculous.

-AH! Just realized I'm gonna split this up into maybe three parts so for the rest of the lyric breakdown see my next post. Sorry for the inconvinience-