Sunday, January 18, 2009

Immigration Detention

Immigrants. The name is always given such a bad rep. Its used as a curse, as if its some sort of horrible taboo. Its used as an insult, as a crude joke to someone who isnt from here but what is here? Who really belongs here? Who does "here" belong to? I always hear the media refer to immigrants as aliens. I ask about it and people say that its because aliens arent from here, just like immigrants. That doesnt make any sense to me, maybe it does logically but morally its just stupid. Aliens are green monsters from strange planets OR aliens just arent real. Depends on who you ask. Immigrants are real. Theyre human beings just like everybody else "from here" I dont even see the need for them to categorize them with a name. They were born somewhere else and decided to come here. Big deal. People are born in the Bronx and go to Manhattan. Its just ridiculous. Now its taken to an even worse level. Theyre are some "immigrants" that get caught up into something stupid, not even a misdemeanor but just something that gets them noticed by the system and they get brought to a detention center, specifically for immigrants and keep in mind, many to most are legal permanent citizens but theyre brought to these centers like theyre some kind of fugitives breaking into some wonderful place. America is crap and I know Id probably get a whole bunch of bull for saying that but Im being honest. I dont care if you wanna call me unAmerican but they way America is currently being ran, its someplace that you find it difficult being proud of. America is supposed to be so full of opportunity, freedom and resources because of the whole constitution thing but its use is so limited because the people that are running the country have no sense and then other people are letting these mindless fools run this place right into the ground and go happily along with it. Nobody wants to stand up for anything. They see something foolish happen, complain about it but do NOTHING about it. These poor people in these centers are treated like murderers. They get little to none medical attention, theyre cut off from their families, theyre humiliated, intimidated, pushed around, sexually assaulted and all for nothing. Some are actually sent there mentally ill, known that they need help but instead are labeled disobidient and put into solitary confinement where they end up going crazy and turn depressed and eventually suicidal. I played this game, which really isnt a game at all called Homeland Guantanamo and they show the "untold story of immigration detainees in the U.S." I started playing the game thinking its was gonna be some little stupid gimmick put there by the government to show how wonderful of a job theyre doing but its nothing close to that. I dont even want to give in detail how the game is because its something you really have to experience for yourself. It tells the story of Boubacar Bah, 52-year-old tailor from Guinea who had overstayed his tourist visa, sustained a fall while in detention and fractured his skull. As a consequence he began to behave erratically, but he was thought to simply be "acting out" and was shackled to the floor. Moaning and vomiting, he was placed in solitary confinement, and although some staff members reported him foaming by the mouth and unresponsive nothing was done for 13 hours. At long last he was sent to the hospital and operated for multiple brain hemorrhages. Not surprisingly, it was too late and Bah died after spending four months in a coma. This is a story that was fortunately made public but there are so many similars ones that havent gotten a chance to be told. Its really one of those "let the dead speak" cases. When you finish playing the game they bring you to a memorial wall where the other 87 documented deaths of detainees are placed and there they let you put a comment of hope or something but as I looked there was some of the most IGNANT comments ever. Stuff like, "Its their fault for coming over here", "They should all die slowly, I hope those aliens burn in hell." Things along those lines and it amazed me to see that they would actually play the game, see whats happening and still be so damn closeminded and...I dont even know a good word for it, as wide as I though my vocabulary was there really isnt a good name for those kind off people, well at least not a good name I could call them without being cut eyes at by my teachers. Seriously though, we could be doing a whole lot better. If people were just more educated on stuff and werent so ignorant to the fact of what was going on we'd be better off. Thats really the problem. People are so dumb they go along with anything. Its a shame but this is something that can be changed. Open your eyes and look at whats happening in the world. I know we all like to make our little jokes about how we're the creator of our on little worlds but when you have to come back and face reality you realize that we're all in this together (oh no, highschool musical quote. So not intended) but yeah, all in this together and we gotta stop being so selffish and closeminded. I challenge everybody that reads this post to play the game and write a post on it. It might not seem like anything but just by you saying something about it, youre doing something about it. "The Secret" The way you think and the things you say change the universe. Its just the way the cosmos works. On Tuesday, January 20th we will have officially elected our first black president. One of the biggest changes. No reason for us to stop there. People have been saying that 2009 is the start of the end but it doesnt have to be. Things are finally just beginning.

-About America being crap, that was my angry comment. It seems like theres so much more bad in this counrty especially more than there is good but I do know fully well America really has some great qualities and we should all take time to explore them and build up on them to create an even better place)

(Homeland Guantanamo link: I dare you.)
(Oh and I mentioned "The Secret" Also something you should look into.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

The Girl In The Water

Well its 3:44 in the morning. I was sleeping but I had the strangest dream and they usually say to write down your dreams so here I am, typing my dream.

-There was a little girl crying in the corner. I couldn't see her face because her hair was in the way. Her hair was oddly dark, it looked dark and wet like she was swimming or something. I was walking towards her to see if she was ok (stupid, i know). I was about 2 feet away from her when she looked up at me. Her skin was dark and her eyes we're bright gold and wide. Eerily beautiful. She told me "I told him not to do it. I told him but he did it and then they hurt him." I guess my subcouncious self was scared because I ran. I ended up on this sidewalk. I looked up and realized I was near the school (188). I looked towards the street and saw one of my friends Anthony riding on a bike. His hair was black and choppy, convering his face. He had one arm on the handles but the other, the other arm wasnt their. I pulled a bike out of my pocket (?) and rode after him. He looked so sad. I asked him what happened and he said "They wouldnt leave me alone. I didnt know. I threw the bag of bees at them but then one of the wasp flew up my nose and thats why I dont have my other arm. Im allergic to bees." (Sad story I know) I jumped off my bike and landed in the ocean. I swam to the edge and saw the girl from before. This time her eyes were red. Red and scary but still strangely beautifully. She said out loud but to know one in particular "This is the last time. I tried to warn you to stay away." Ghost appeared behind her. All their faces were blurry. They came straight towards me. One of them put his hand over my eyes and pushed me deep into the water.

Thats when I woke up. Im thinking about writing that down as a story. Yup, so Im gonna go back to bed now. I just might try to interpret this dream later on when I a little more awake.

Friday, January 16, 2009

My Haikus About Math

That Just Means Not Equal
Why such a big word?

Math is frustrating
It reminds me of parents
Like them, you need math

Graph paper, pencil
Lets make coordinates and plot
*Sigh* I dont want to

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!........(TO ME!!!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! WOOT! 14 YEARS OLD! Wow...Im getting old...Well, its 11:31 so 29 more minutes til the official day of my wonderful oh so inspiring birth but still.
Yeah, just wanted to say Happy Birthday to myself. Sorry this is such a short post but short post on my blog for once is a welcome change from those novel intros I usually do huh? Teehee! Yeah but I'll be back. Gonna go look for some birthday presents or something-

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Being random is great...

For 2009 Im trying to be more "open" so what better way to do this than with a whole bunch of meaningless amazingly random questions. I'll probably be doing more of these in the near future so...yeah, just wanted to say that.

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
Well its 11:49 now so I was home, in my favorite chair.
2. Who are you in love with?
Somebody, he probably doesn't want to be mentioned so...yeah, somebody special.
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
No, but Ive eaten chalk before.
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
My friends dog....(dont ask)
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
A week ago
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
Yes, Barney ones. Barney is awesome.
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
I wish I could say I had a car period. Well, I could say it but I want to say it and not be lying.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
If I dont have a car, how am I supposed to "drive" out of town. Ridiculous.
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No, but Ive seen some movies online
10. Are you hot?
No! Its REALLY cold in here.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
This smoothie thingy I made with my cousin.
12. What are you wearing right now?
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
Omg, again. Dont-have-a-car...Gosh.
14. Last food that you ate?
Strawberries. Theyre so cute and red and stuff.
15. Where were you last week at this time?
My friend Dashawn's house.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Yeah, I felt like being the stereotypical girl and got excited about shopping
17. When is the last time you ran?
Earlier today, sometime around quarter before something else.
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
The Giants Vs. The Eagles.
Eagles:23/Giants:11 (Its funny that they played this game on the 11. Maybe if they played on the 25 they would have won)
19. What is your favorite animal?
Lynx (Its like a snowleopard/lion thing)
20. Your dream vacation?
A remote island...that hasnt been "discovered".
21. Last person's house you were in?
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
Um...scratched cornea.
23. Have you been in love?
I havent BEEN but I am now.
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
25. Last play you saw?
An Urban Remake Of Romeo and Juliet titled Romiette and Julio.
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Dont have one...dont really need one;)
27. What are your plans for tonight?
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
This person I dont know...
29. Next trip you are going to take?
That remote island I was telling you about
30. Ever go to camp?
Yeah, it was fun except for the occasional bear was ok.
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
Yup, 4 years straight.
32. What do you want to know about the future?
If Im gonna be hurt anytime in the near future so I can just avoid it somehow.
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Its 11:52...
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
35. Where is your best friend?
He's home
36. How is your best friend?
Good. Thanks for asking. Hows yours?
37. Do you have a tan?
Why would have a tan??
38. What are you listening to right now?
Vulnerable-SecondHand Serenade
39. Do you collect anything?
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
I dont know, whoever writes that stuff in the girls bathroom. Theyre amazing.
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
Pulled over? In what? For what? Driving an imaginary car? Wow
I got stopped the other day though (while walking), like 4 days ago.
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
43. What does your last text message say?
44. Do you like hot sauce?
45. Last time you took a shower?
Like 20 minutes ago
46. Do you need to do laundry?
47. What is your heritage?
48. Are you someone's best friend?
I'd hope so
49. Are you rich?
It depends on who you ask
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
Playing DeadSpace

Monday, January 12, 2009

Exploiting Your Own Kids...Wow

I was watchin this video on YouTube today and there were these two little girls dancing together. I usually look at the comments before I watch any video (I hate when they have those scary faces pop up on the screen so I check for spoilers) and I saw some people callin the little girls sluts and the parents ignorant. Now Im thinking, why is everybody being so mean? All I see are two little girl dancing. I scroll back up to the video and one girl is bent over in front of the other one dancing like they do in many clubs. Thats when I realize what the people are saying. So I look at more of the comments just to see what other people think. Then I hear through the music "Go head Nana kiss her." I had no idea what was going on but when I looked back at the video these two women were tryna get the girls to kiss. Seriously now, the kids are around 7 and 8 years old and theyre doing this. First I thought maybe theyre just tryna keep them from gettin twisted up into some kind of homophobia or something but thats so not the way to do it. I agree with everyone in the comments who called the parents or whoever was ignorant. Theyre sitting there exploiting their children not even realizing or just not caring the amount of creeps on there tryna get away at some kiddie p**n and its just really sad. Theyres PERVS just being so fueled and amused by this that it really is sick. If those poor kids arent taught better from now, the hell that theyre gonna end up in is gonna just be so hard to get out of and its gonna be the parents fault but you know what its ok because, im not gonna start preaching or anything but in the bible (somewhere, im not really that great on quoting scriptures) it says "God looks out for the fools and the babies" and as far as I know God can't lie so hopefully, those parents get some sense slapped into them soon or by some miracle their kids realize not to listen or follow them in anyway. Many parents these days are exploiting their kids and not even realizing it, its a shame. Then we wonder how they end up getting pregnant and die of STDS or get kicked out of every school and become a drop out. Follow the bread crumbs that lead to the parents. It always leads right back...

Friday, January 2, 2009

(2009)HAPPY NEW YEAR WISHES/(2008) My Past Year Mistakes

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Its the big 09 now huh? Didnt 2008 pass fast? Makes you really wonder where time goes. What it should make you realize is that time waits for no man. They say when you die, your life flashes before you eyes. That means you should make it worth watching. One of the biggest New Year cliches is to create a resolution. The people that follow their resolutions are worth recognizing but to me resolutions are a big waste of time. I dont make resolutions, I make promises to myself. I know alot of people are gonna think "Well isnt that the same thing?" Let me just tell you now, it isnt. To me resolutions are just something you tell people but promises are something that you have to say and live up to. Resolutions...not much. If you really say the word how its spelled without the made syllables, its RE-Solutions. A solution done again? Well if that solution was all that great why would you do it again? That just seems like youre making a mistake twice without even realizing what your first mistake was. Maybe Im wrong in your thought but thats what I think and really, you cant go wrong being true with yourself. Promises are something that should be done once and proven over a lifetime. Love is a promise and when you think about love, its not something that can just be said and ended. You have to say it, mean it and prove it. A promise. Say it, mean it and prove it. Love yourself, make a promise to yourself. Say it, mean it and prove it to yourself. Forget about everybody else.

Now my promise to myself for 2009 is that Im gonna stop regreting cuz now that I think about it, its better to regret doing something than to regret doing nothing at all. Before my big problem was rejection. I was so scared of being rejected that Id stay so quiet and to myself that Id be invisible but not even to other people, more to myself... Then, after awhile Id stop caring so much that Id hope to be rejected. I figured it would make me stronger. Like jumping into cold water in 15 degree weather. It would make me immune. I thought I could be immune to pain. That was a downfall and I ended being hurt so much because I wouldnt think. The pain was a numbness. If I was numb I wouldnt feel the pain. That was another problem because when I realized that I did care I would feel all the pain of everthing that happened Id go into shock. Then, I would regret everything. I wouldnt forgive, I wouldnt forget. Id mourn and cry and think of regret. Yup. That was 2008. My promise, to just live. Learn from my mistakes, think before I do anything and never reget. Im learning now that pain is not a numbness. Its not something I can be immune from either. Sometimes you just gotta feel it, remember it and move on and thats my plan for 09. Its funny, the whole New Year New Me thing really makes sense to me now. I guess you shouldnt wait for a whole new year to come before you change yourself for the better. If its in the middle of the year, middle of the week, middle of the day at the 15 minutes past the hour and you feel like changing go ahead and do it. The sooner the better.
(I know Happy New Year wishes are supposed to be...well happy and full of cheer and what not but what better way to start the New Year than a good ranting full of honesty. To me thats like starting the day with a good cup of coffee. Yup, even though I dont drink coffee...but whatever)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Hope 09 is full of opportunity and fun!